And You're Lost!
There are things better be buried and forgotten forever, though you’ll never be able to leave them way behind without finding yourself one day unconsciously digging deep and exhuming your atrocious fears and memories!
It’s a state of restlessness, knowing that there’s something wicked back there inside your head howling underneath, disfiguring you from the inside and leaving you in a state between nightmares and desolate reality and a yearning for inner peace which leads to self-hatred and unjustified rage.
So you become nothing but a savage beast,…living on the edge,…hardly caring about anything,…and your mind, which is totally obscured by dark thoughts, only feels secure when it’s in the wild and not behind some fragile smooth fancy curtains of serenity and content!
Finally,…you pay the price, fall down, fatigued from overloading your nervous system, and in need for peace and emotional satisfaction which you devour with a sense of disgust for being such a pathetic creature; That’s when the beast inside begin to roar again trying to eliminate the bitter taste of human weakness and you find yourself lost on the way to redemption!
It’s a state of restlessness, knowing that there’s something wicked back there inside your head howling underneath, disfiguring you from the inside and leaving you in a state between nightmares and desolate reality and a yearning for inner peace which leads to self-hatred and unjustified rage.
So you become nothing but a savage beast,…living on the edge,…hardly caring about anything,…and your mind, which is totally obscured by dark thoughts, only feels secure when it’s in the wild and not behind some fragile smooth fancy curtains of serenity and content!
Finally,…you pay the price, fall down, fatigued from overloading your nervous system, and in need for peace and emotional satisfaction which you devour with a sense of disgust for being such a pathetic creature; That’s when the beast inside begin to roar again trying to eliminate the bitter taste of human weakness and you find yourself lost on the way to redemption!
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posted by hurricane_x @ 9:47 PM
22 Comments:
So these things will never really be buried and forgotten forever... they will always find a way to haunt you huh! then what's the point in trying to bury them away in the first place! (that's a rhetoric Q)
the development of the text is so... real! I can so feel it. and the fact that it never ends, the way one could get caught up in the vicious circle... it scares me.. !
I LOVE this post!
Yeah,..
u try to bury or forget them and u think u finally did it, BUT...
and u know the rest!
sure u got caught in that circle before, or a similar one, didn't u?!
:) that's why it scares me... if it's a vicious circle, then that necessarily means I'll go back there to that down point!! It really sucks if you have a good memory for details too! :D and I always thought I was actually capable of hiding away certain things from my conscious! pretty naiive huh :)
i really like it coz it's real ,we hide alot thinking we got rid of'em .. but alas we're trapped for life .
well,i dunno if we should become monsters so we won't be a pathetic creature who feels...although sometimes it's the only right way out.
i like it alot coz as i said soooooooooooooooo real.it touched me specially the last part
salam :))
But why?
my stomach ached a bit reading that, too visual :))
and yeah poor ppl who have good memory (MOI)
wow vivid and lurid.......awesome.
maat..
yep, and they're recalled so vivid and clear!
shayma..
becoming a monster or losing urslf for sometime is not a choice; it's rather uncontrolled if u don't have inner peace!
jade..
Because what u r hiding or trying to forget makes u restless, since it's already causing\caused u pain.
So whenever u feel that u r content with ur current state, u unconsciously recall it or it just happens to float on the surface for no reason (or that's what u might think) and ruin ur happiness.
Is that the answer for "why"?
insomniac..
yeah, poor they r :/
(Moi aussi)!
I wish "selective amnesia" was possible :)
zerocool..
thx,..
and irritating!
I know that cycle very much, I huv been circling for a long time but I learned that we r the ones who feed that circle by remembering stuff
nd as u said if selected amnesia was an option, i would huv go 4 it.
Lucky me, an external factor broken the circle and I m free now!
Hope the same for all !
Yeah... I guess.
It kinda made me sad.
Ouch!
Stunned!!!...how did you know that I'm lost the way you described...!
so true...so vivid!
My memories are eating me easily and the circle started to be wider than I can bear
I'm going to be creasy it makes me so weak and dispirited
If there is an option to lose all my memories, I will select it
Is there somebody has the medication please tell me
epitaph..
well,..
most of us (bloggers I mean) r in need for therapy!
Princess Aosa..
losing (ALL) ur memories is still not a good option, some of them r worth keeping and remembering!
hi friends
soppott us
spport the life
Egypt violated the rights of Sudanese refugees
More than 10000 refugees, mostly in Egyptian prisons
Egyptian authorities have killed more than 100 of them
They resort to Israel to receive the safty of injustice Egyptian authorities, what is happening is a shame in the face of humanity
In my blog was portrayed by the suffering of these
see this movi and tray do not cry
Am asudanes bloger in egypt
Thank you for your support
I donno if I shuold be a friend to leave a comment , but I'll consider myself invited if u dont mind :)...what I loved about the post is that when u think ur all alone , stuck in ur feelings and unique world of memories and nothingness, ur blog comes out of the blue and says to me "hello...we 're here too"...
good expressions Dude
Of course u r free to say whatever u want :)
It's the back door for everyone!
Well well....we are back to that???? Give ure mind a break......i wonder how could u breath with all that infesting ure brain 24\7?
It's the other way round...
"He" should give me a break!!
for soemtime now am coming here, i read, i think, i get myself more confused , then i leave, whats up ya hurricane??
pls have some mercy.
the quest for idntity and self is hard. the idea of memories hauting you, is even mmmm not harder but much more frightening, its a living torture.
am mixed up , cant think anymore.
thanks as always
I can't control it, can u?
is that bcoz of the halloween or what?
u know i am about to go sleep now
i am afraid to wake up and find me inside that beast of me:)
it's a very strong,wild and horrible post :P
but anyway i enjoyed it so much and i ask u to take my memories and bury them all
i wanna kill that beast inside:)
sorsaraa...
It will be my pleasure to bury them :)
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